change is good.

I am angry. Despite thinking that all of these feelings were finally buried with my past, something stirred within me when I realized that there could have been some hidden agenda to his flight.

To you: you are nothing to me now.

To her: enjoy yourself.

The sudden upwelling in emotion was temporary, thank goodness, and it was eventually replaced by an odd vindication...a sense of final closure, and a convenient happenstance to make this process a lot easier. But as of 12:16 am on this morning, I can confidently say that I am over you.

In other news, I am loving this internship with the Tiger Woods Foundation! I get to work with kids, hands-on in the classroom, and I have to say that I have never encountered a more dedicated staff. These teachers just genuinely care about the students that come in, and they just inspire me to do whatever I can to help out.

I was tasked to intern for Mr. E's Engineering class, and although it's embarrassing when students ask questions I don't know the answers to (I hadn't even heard of mouse-trap motion or rubber band cars until 2 days ago!), it's always fun to just interact with these kids and get them to open up to me. :] I know I'm not the most sociable person in the world, but I gotta find a way to get out of my comfort zone and "be the role model I want to look up to."

In all honesty, I am so grateful that I got this Earl Woods Scholarship; even though I didn't win any other scholarships, I really think I got the best one. The foundation doesn't just give you money and let you loose with it in the real world; they train you so you can have a successful career. We had a workshop today, and our guest speaker was Karina Hamilton, the director of the SAGE Scholars program at UC Irvine. Can you imagine? This amazingly influential person sat across from me in the board room and talked to me. She was interested in what I had to say, and she spoke such that I felt she was deeply invested in my potential success in a career of my choice. We talked about our mentors for the scholarship; mine is Fernando Niebla, one of the head honchos at Union Bank. Imagine the power in his fingertips. And he volunteered to teach me. Me.

What did I do to deserve such opportunities? I got good grades in high school, but I'm nowhere near as committed as Omar and Sue are. And that's got to change.

I go to Berkeley, and what do I have to show for it? NOTHING. So come this fall, the gloves are coming off. I'm going places, baby. And I'm gonna start showing that I deserve all of these opportunities that are coming to me..

Change your world. =]