Somewhere along the way, I fell off the bandwagon.
R e m i n i s c e n c e .
Feelings you never forget.
There's this big G A P that's developed between myself and my childhood friends. Miles and miles separate us from one another, but it's not the physical distance that hurts; it's the ideological, emotional, and intellectual changes. It's also little things like slang words I'll never catch on to, inside jokes I'll never get, pet names, senior year excursions, etcetera, etcetera.
But I love them nonetheless.
I won't deny the fact that I've been drifting away from my once fervent belief in Catholicism. That was a big jump I experienced - an upheaval of sorts...when I transitioned from an all-girl Catholic school to a...public school nestled in the outskirts of a healthily commercial city. No more monthly First Friday masses, no more prayers before and after class, no more Angelus at noon...belief became optional.
Today I go to church on Sundays, hoping to capture some sort of inspiration to believe again - maybe from a verse...maybe from a homily. But from a song?
Do not be afraid, I am with you
I have called you each by name
Come and follow me
I will bring you home
I love you, and you are mine.
Songs. :) Songs connect me to my faith and my friends. We sang this song together, perhaps half-heartedly, in between fits of giggles and gossip, but nonetheless...together.
If my belief is contingent with their presence, does that leave no hope of re-connecting with my faith?
Who knows?
Cheers to 2011, and to the prospect of a homecoming.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
In His Defense
Yes, I am alive. I'm just trying to find my way through this new year...this new semester. I've taken on new challenges, and I'm not completely sure if I understand who this new "me" is. Whatever I turn out to be, I won't regret it. Fo sho.
I'm looking for a job. With this economy, I know it's gonna take a while, though...but hopefully it'll happen.
Which brings me to this little scenario:
She cursed the economy. She can't find a job either, so she cursed...not just the economy, but the president himself.
"He hasn't done anything!" she said.
Okay, a month into Obama's presidency, I'm sure we've all realized that he's not just gonna wave a magic wand to make things okay again. Or have we?
The thing with "the public" is...it's not really aware of what goes on in the political realm. It has no incentive to. Still, it's really frustrating to see events unfurl as they do today: people who were enthusiastic about Obama's victory are now seething with impatience because he hasn't really done anything to help the economy recover.
Really? He hasn't done anything?
Who personally campaigned in the House for the stimulus bill? Who bargained and bickered with Republican congressmen and senators alike? Who repeatedly appeals to the media - to ultimately reach legislators - to speak strongly about the desperate need for the stimulus package? Who created an economic recovery team (with appointees from the UC regents and Boalt Hall) to plan...economic recovery?
No one, I guess. Because Obama hasn't done anything, right?
Get your head out of your ass. The president is busting his chops trying to get this thing through the House and the Senate. If you want immediate results that you're not getting, blame the Republicans for believing in their ideology, or for just plain ol' opposing the Democratic president.
Don't sit there and criticize a system whose mechanics you are ignorant of. SERIOUSLY. Either educate yourself, or don't participate in the democratic process at all.
Edit: If this post hasn't conveyed my thoughts, here's a cartoon. Hehehe...
I'm looking for a job. With this economy, I know it's gonna take a while, though...but hopefully it'll happen.
Which brings me to this little scenario:
She cursed the economy. She can't find a job either, so she cursed...not just the economy, but the president himself.
"He hasn't done anything!" she said.
Okay, a month into Obama's presidency, I'm sure we've all realized that he's not just gonna wave a magic wand to make things okay again. Or have we?
The thing with "the public" is...it's not really aware of what goes on in the political realm. It has no incentive to. Still, it's really frustrating to see events unfurl as they do today: people who were enthusiastic about Obama's victory are now seething with impatience because he hasn't really done anything to help the economy recover.
Really? He hasn't done anything?
Who personally campaigned in the House for the stimulus bill? Who bargained and bickered with Republican congressmen and senators alike? Who repeatedly appeals to the media - to ultimately reach legislators - to speak strongly about the desperate need for the stimulus package? Who created an economic recovery team (with appointees from the UC regents and Boalt Hall) to plan...economic recovery?
No one, I guess. Because Obama hasn't done anything, right?
Get your head out of your ass. The president is busting his chops trying to get this thing through the House and the Senate. If you want immediate results that you're not getting, blame the Republicans for believing in their ideology, or for just plain ol' opposing the Democratic president.
Don't sit there and criticize a system whose mechanics you are ignorant of. SERIOUSLY. Either educate yourself, or don't participate in the democratic process at all.
Edit: If this post hasn't conveyed my thoughts, here's a cartoon. Hehehe...
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